I wanted to surprise my husband. I decided to visit him at work and bring him lunch. As I approached the door, I overheard a conversation that left me deeply hurt.
Im twenty-nine years old. Perhaps Im the most naive woman in the world, because until recently, I believed my family was perfect. And I was wrong about my choice My husband turned out to be a cheat and a selfish man. I still cant believe he did this to me.
Weve known each other for ten years, six of them married. His name is James, and he was always caring and devoted, providing for me and our children. We have twoa son and a daughter. With my help, James managed to start his own business, which brought in good money.
I worked as a sales assistant, and recently, I opened my own online clothing shop. So, while our daughter is at nursery and our son naps, I work and earn my own income.
My weight had always hovered around fifty-four kilograms. After giving birth, I gained twenty kilos. At first, I hoped caring for two children would help me shed the extra weight. But things are never as simple as they seem. I set a goal to lose itate right, exercised, drank plenty of water, and cut out junk food. Yet the scale didnt budge, and it crushed me. I started feeling deeply insecure.
After my second child, I no longer liked what I saw in the mirror. I didnt feel feminine or attractive anymore. And James changed before my eyes. He stopped kissing or hugging me, let alone anything else. I cant even remember the last time we had a real conversation. Our talks were reduced to household matters.
I admit, before having children, I felt much more confident and beautiful. Now, I barely recognise myself. I know our relationship has suffered because of it, so I decided to fix things. One day, I planned to surprise James at work with lunch. I walked up to his office door and heard him say:
“Dont worry, love, Ill come by after work. I told my wife Im swampedshe doesnt even know you exist!”
I didnt step inside. I turned around and left.
Does he not realise I gained weight carrying *his* children? Hes no perfect catch himselfhes overweight too.
Now I wonderdoes he also think Im a fool?
I couldnt bring myself to confront James. What should I do? File for divorce but what about the children? How would they cope without their father? Pretend nothing happened? I dont think I can.
For now, Ive decided to focus on myself. Ive joined a gym. First, Ill show James what hes losingthen well see.
Sometimes, the hardest lesson is realising that self-worth isnt defined by someone elses betrayal. Strength begins the moment you choose to walk awayeven if its just in your heart.
