My son needs
Fifty thousand pounds, Stephen. Fifty. On top of the thirty grand in child support.
I slammed my phone down on the kitchen table so hard it nearly skidded off the edge. Stephen barely caught it in time, and that instinctive move just wound me up even more.
Freddie needed trainers and kit for his club, Stephen murmured, turning the phone over like he was hiding evidence. Hes shooting up, Val. Kids grow, you know?
Trainers for fifty quid? What, is he trying out for Team GB?
There was a backpack, too. And a jacket autumns coming.
I turned away, refusing to meet his eyes. I already knew about the transfers. Every month, no fail. Always with the same old story: our son, duty, responsibility. Noble words for hard numbers streaming out of our shared savings into someone elses pocket.
I love him, Stephen said softly, moving closer, pausing just behind me. Hes my boy. I cant just
Im not saying abandon your child, I replied sharply. Im asking why youre spending so much extra, besides the child support? Thirty thousand a month isnt that enough? Isnt Nina working?
She is.
Then whats the issue?
He fell silent. I knew that silence by heart now it meant he didnt have an answer. Only habit. Always agreeing, always helping, never arguing. Trying too hard to be the good ex-husband, good father, good bloke. Always at our expense.
I turned, leaning against the sink.
I keep track, you know? In my head. How much goes to them each month. Fancy knowing how much in a year?
No.
Nearly six hundred thousand. And thats not even counting todays fifty.
He rubbed his forehead in that familiar way lets not do this. But I couldnt stay quiet any longer. Id pretended to understand far too long.
We had plans for a holiday, remember? You promised November, sea, two weeks. So wheres that money?
Val I know. But Nina rang, it was urgent
Nina. Its always urgent with her.
He slumped onto the stool and, for a split second, I saw how tired he really was. Not from work, but from the endless tug-of-war between two women. Something like sympathy flickered but I stamped it down.
She wants to buy a flat, Stephen finally admitted, eyes fixed on the floor. So Freddie has a room of his own.
Wait. A new flat?
A bigger one. Theyre cramped in a one-bed, you know that. Its tight.
So, whos paying?
He finally looked up, guilt flickering across his face. I felt cold.
Youre not?
She asked for help with the deposit. Im just thinking about it right now.
Thinking? Stephen! Thats a fortune! Where would you get it?
Weve saved a bit. For the car.
We saved it! For our car! For our family!
My voice cracked, and I clamped my hand over my mouth as though I could force the words back in. Too late. They hung in the air between us.
Stephen stood, moved to the window, hands shoved deep in his pockets.
Freddies family too, he murmured. I cant pretend he doesnt exist.
No ones asking you to pretend! But theres child support legal, fair. The rest? Thats your goodwill. And mine, actually. Those are our shared finances.
I know.
But it doesnt stop you.
Silence. Next door, the neighbours telly flicked on muffled voices and laughter from some sitcom, a ridiculous backdrop to our disaster.
I slid into my usual seat, smoothing the tablecloth. Inside, I felt raw anger, confusion, disappointment. Carefully, I forced my voice to stay level.
How much is she asking for?
Two hundred thousand for the deposit.
The number sucked all the air out of the room. I let out a humourless laugh.
Two hundred grand. Thats all we have.
I know.
And you seriously think youll give it to her?
Its for my son.
I dont agree. Its my money too, in case you forgot.
He said nothing. There was nothing left to say.
A week later, I logged into my banking app to check if my salary had come through. Mindlessly, I scrolled to our savings account the one wed been building for three years.
Balance: £47,502.
I blinked. Refreshed. Checked again.
Forty-seven grand instead of two hundred thousand.
My phone dropped onto the carpet.
Standing there in the middle of the lounge, I was frozen. Two hundred grand. Three years of saving, missing holidays, scrutinising every big purchase. Now just forty-seven thousand left. The rough remains of the future wed planned. I picked up the phone and looked at the transactions. Transfer, recipient: Nina Catherine Collins.
He hadnt even tried to hide it.
Stephen was sat on the sofa with his laptop when I burst in. He glanced up, smiled vaguely then the smile vanished as he saw my face.
You spent all our savings on your ex?!
I couldnt care less how loud I was. Let the neighbours hear, let the block hear.
Val, hang on, I can explain
Explain?! Two hundred thousand pounds, Stephen! Two hundred! That was ours!
He set his laptop aside and stood, slow and stubborn, no trace of guilt just that dogged look.
Its for Freddie. He needs a proper room, decent living conditions. Im his dad. I have to
You owe your family! Me! Not the woman you divorced four years ago!
Shes my sons mother.
And Im who, then?!
Youre my wife. I love you. But Freddie
Stop hiding behind Freddie! I stepped forward, and Stephen actually flinched. You bought Nina a flat. Not Freddie her! Its in her name, isnt it? Shell live there, shell own it, might sell it if she wants. Hows that for your son?
Stephen opened his mouth, closed it. He had nothing.
You still love her, I said quietly. Dont you see? Its not about Freddie. Youve just never been able to say no.
Thats not true.
Then why? Why didnt you ask me? Why decide for both of us?
He moved closer, hands out:
Val, please. Lets talk about this. I get youre upset, I really do, but this is for Freddie
I recoiled.
Dont touch me.
Three words and suddenly, a wall rose up between us. Stephens hands hovered mid-air, finally, finally understanding. Far too late.
I cant do this, I said, moving past him into our bedroom and grabbing a bag. I cant share my life with someone who decides everything alone. Who lies. Who
I never lied!
You didnt say. Same difference.
I shoved in my essentials knickers, documents, phone charger. Stephen stood in the doorway, watching everything crumble.
Where are you going?
To my mums.
How long?
I zipped the bag, swung it onto my shoulder. Looked at my husband this grown man whose stunned eyes said he truly didnt get it.
I dont know, Stephen. I honestly dont know.
Three days at Mums flat passed in a daze. First I just lay on the sofa, staring at the ceiling. Mum brought tea, never pried, just stroked my hair like she used to. On day two, the anger came sharp and liberating. By day three, I had clarity. I dialled my solicitor friend.
I want a divorce. Yes, Im sure. No, theres no way back.
Stephen called every day. Sent rambling, desperate messages explanations, apologies. I read them, never replied. What was there to say? Hed made his choice. Now it was my turn.
Within the month, I moved into a rented one-bed across town. Tiny, view of some warehouses, but it was mine. I chose the curtains. Arranged the furniture. Decided how my salary got spent.
The divorce was quick Stephen didnt resist, signed it all without fuss. Maybe he hoped Id change my mind, but I never did.
Now, in the evenings, I sometimes sit by my new window, thinking how odd life can be. Three years ago, I thought Id found my person. Today Im alone, and for once, it doesnt scare me.
In my notebook, I wrote one word: zero. Starting point. Next to it, I sketched out plans: for the month, for six months, for a year. How much to save, where to invest, which courses to take to boost my skills.
For the first time in ages, the future is entirely up to me.







