Chasing Elusive Joy

**Earnest Happiness**

“Mum, there’s only one way left for us to have a child—IVF. Cyril and I have made up our minds. There’s no talking us out of it. You’d best get used to the idea,” Sophie said in one breath.

“IVF? So, I’ll have a grandchild born in a test tube?” I could hardly believe what my own daughter was telling me.

“Call it what you like, Mum. We start the procedures tomorrow. All the tests are done. The doctors warned us—it’ll be a long, uncertain road. No guarantees. Please, just be patient.” Sophie sighed deeply.

I couldn’t find the words to answer. I ought to have comforted her, given her hope, helped—or at least not stood in her way.

The conversation happened over the phone. I understood why Sophie couldn’t face me—the subject was too delicate.

Her first marriage had been to her childhood sweetheart, Alfred. She had believed their love was unbreakable. Yet, at the wedding reception, after one too many drinks, he was caught in a compromising embrace with the maid of honour. Sophie found them in a dusty store cupboard, tangled together.

Alfred stammered excuses when he saw her; the other woman snatched up her things, covering herself with a sheer shawl, and fled—never to be seen again that day.

Sophie filed for divorce. My husband and I begged her not to be hasty.

“Sophie, don’t rush. Men do foolish things when they’re drunk. That woman probably dragged him in there. He’s a fine chap—she couldn’t resist. Forgive him, love. You’ve your whole life ahead. You’ll regret this later.”

“No, Mum. I won’t. Alfie stung me good and proper. The pain’s unbearable, but I won’t start a marriage built on lies. Thank God it happened before vows were truly made—less heartache for me.” Sophie was firm.

Alfred pleaded, apologised, repented—all in vain.

Months later, we learnt Sophie was carrying his child. Without telling me, she ended the pregnancy. Had I known, I’d have begged her to return to Alfred.

Time passed, and Cyril—Alfred’s best friend—proposed. He’d loved Sophie for years but hadn’t dared cross his friend. Now, with circumstances changed, he seized his chance. Sophie didn’t agree at once. Burnt once, she trusted no one. She hesitated for three years. Cyril never wavered. Finally, she believed in his love.

“Cyril, does your offer to marry me still stand?”

“Of course, Sophie! Do you mean it?” He kissed her hand.

She nodded.

Overjoyed, Cyril threw a splendid wedding. All their friends came—except Alfred. He sent a grand bouquet of fragrant lilies, which Sophie rejected, giving them to a single friend instead.

Sophie was twenty-eight then, Cyril thirty-three. Two years into their marriage, still no child.

“Sophie, have you and Cyril any plans, or is it just… not happening?” I asked carefully.

“It’s not happening, Mum. I’m worried. Cyril won’t speak of it. I think he blames himself. We’ll wait another year, then…” She looked away.

“Then what? Adoption?”

“Time will tell. We’ll have our baby—one way or another.” She smiled mysteriously.

“God willing! Your father and I long for a grandchild.” I stroked her hair.

Two more years passed. Then Sophie told me of their IVF plans. I was dead against it.

“Sophie, they say these children have no soul, fall ill more, can’t have children of their own—like machines!”

“Mum, the method’s been used forty years. It’s growing worldwide. Many infertile couples rely on it. ‘Test-tube babies’ are as normal as any other. It’s just… hard. You’ve no idea the toll it takes—on me, on Cyril. But prepare for grandchildren. Twins could happen. The first IVF women later conceived naturally.” She was desperate to convince me.

I realised the decision was made. All I could do was hope, trust, and stay strong.

The journey was costly, exhausting, gruelling. Sophie conceived on the fourth attempt. The hormones brought weight gain, mood swings—she laughed or wept unpredictably. Cyril grew thin, worn by her turmoil.

“Mum, I’m afraid to sneeze, to move too fast—what if I lose it? I couldn’t bear a fifth try. I’m so tired. All this suffering because of that first abortion. Could I have kept it? Now I pay the price.” She wiped away tears.

They holidayed twice by the sea—Sophie needed respite. Her nerves frayed; once, she nearly leapt from a window. Cyril never left her side—his love her anchor.

“Without him, I’d have broken,” she admitted.

After eight months of fear and hope, our little Mary arrived—IVF babies often come early.

The family rejoiced—though Cyril’s mother doubted the child’s bloodline at first.

“Son, what if she’s not yours? Her nose isn’t like yours, her ears stick out… Maybe the hospital mixed things up.”

But as Mary grew, she mirrored Cyril—nose, ears and all. His mother quieted.

“Test-tube babies” aren’t accidents. They’re longed for, fiercely loved, cherished beyond measure. Their childhoods glow with care—held tenderly, like sunbeams in cupped hands.

Yet, gossip forced them to move. Once, while I walked Mary in the park, a nurse called out:

“Hello, mums! And a special hello to the IVF granny!”

I burned with shame. “Have you no sense? How dare you shout such things!”

The women nearby perked their ears. The nurse blinked. “Oh—I thought everyone knew Mary was… different.”

“You’re right—she is different.” I took Mary elsewhere.

After that, neighbours pestered Sophie with crude questions. Fearing someone would tell Mary prematurely, they sold their flat and left.

Mary’s five now—bright, lively, mischievous. She adores nursery, bosses the other children, fibs clumsily to her teacher.

Health-wise, she has allergies (strict diet), a slight lisp (speech therapy), and mild shortsightedness (optometrist visits). Such troubles plague “ordinary” children too. All mendable.

The point is, Sophie and Cyril’s dream came true—their beautiful Mary.

As for us? Life without our giggling granddaughter is unthinkable.

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