Give Me a Reason, Please — Have a great day, — Denis leaned in and brushed her cheek with his lips. Anastasia nodded automatically. Her skin felt dry and cool—no warmth, no irritation. Just skin, just a touch. The door closed, and the flat filled with silence. She stood in the hallway for ten more seconds, listening to herself. When did it happen? When did something inside her click and switch off? Anastasia remembered crying in the bathroom two years ago when Denis forgot their anniversary. Last year, she shook with rage when he once again forgot to pick up Vasilisa from nursery. Half a year ago, she was still trying to talk, to explain, to ask. Now—nothing. Clean and smooth, like a scorched field. Anastasia walked to the kitchen, poured herself a coffee, and sat at the table. Twenty-nine years old. Seven of them married. Yet here she was in an empty flat with a cooling mug, realising that she’d fallen out of love with her husband so quietly and mundanely that she hadn’t even noticed when it happened. Denis carried on in his usual routine. Promised to pick up their daughter—didn’t do it. Said he’d fix the bathroom tap—the tap had been leaking for three months. Swore that this weekend they’d finally go to the zoo—but on Saturday urgent plans with his friends turned up and on Sunday he just lounged on the sofa. Vasilisa stopped asking when Daddy would play with her. At five years old, she already knew: Mummy was reliable. Daddy was the man who sometimes appeared in the evenings and watched TV. Anastasia no longer started rows. Didn’t cry into her pillow. Didn’t make plans to fix things. She simply removed Denis from the equation of her life. Car needs to go for its MOT? She arranged it herself. Broken lock on the balcony door? She called a handyman. Vasilisa needed a snowflake outfit for Christmas? Anastasia sewed it at night while her husband snored in the next room. The family became a strange structure of two adults living parallel lives under one roof. One night Denis reached for her in bed. Anastasia gently moved away, blaming a headache. Then tiredness. Then other imagined illnesses. She methodically built a wall between them, higher with every refusal. “Go on then, have an affair,” she thought coolly. “Give me a reason. A proper, clear reason my parents and mother-in-law would accept. One I wouldn’t have to explain.” Because how do you tell your mother that you’re leaving your husband just because he’s… nothing? Doesn’t hit, doesn’t drink, brings money home. So he doesn’t help with chores—everyone’s got that. So he doesn’t spend time with the child—men aren’t great with kids anyway. Anastasia opened a separate bank account and started saving part of her salary. Signed up for the gym—not for her husband, for herself. For that new life, beckoning somewhere beyond the horizon of an inevitable divorce. In the evenings, when Vasilisa had gone to sleep, Anastasia put on headphones and listened to podcasts in English. Conversational phrases, business correspondence. Her company worked with international clients and a good level of English could open new doors. Professional development courses took up two evenings a week. Denis grumbled that he had to look after Vasilisa, though “looking after her” just meant putting on cartoons and scrolling on his phone. Anastasia spent weekends with her daughter. Parks, playgrounds, cafés with milkshakes, cinema trips to animated films. Vasilisa got used to this being their time—mum and her. Dad existed somewhere on the periphery, like a piece of furniture. “She won’t even notice,” Anastasia reassured herself. “When we divorce, almost nothing will change for her.” It was a comforting thought. Anastasia clung to it, like a lifebuoy. And then something shifted. Anastasia didn’t notice it straight away. One evening Denis offered to put Vasilisa to bed. Then—to pick her up from nursery. Then—he made dinner, alright, just cheese and pasta, but on his own, without reminders. Anastasia eyed him suspiciously. What’s this? A guilty conscience? Short-lived insanity? Trying to cover up a secret mistake she didn’t yet know about? But the days passed and Denis didn’t revert. He got up early to take Vasilisa to nursery. Fixed that tap. Signed her up for swimming and even took her to lessons on Saturdays. “Daddy, Daddy, look, I can dive now!” Vasilisa ran round the flat, pretending to swim. Denis grabbed her, tossed her up to the ceiling, and she squealed with real, ringing laughter. Anastasia watched from the kitchen, not recognising her husband. “I can watch her on Sunday,” Denis said one evening. “Aren’t you meeting your friends?” Anastasia nodded slowly. No meeting planned—she was just going to sit in a café alone with her book. But how did he know about friends? Was he actually listening to her phone calls? The weeks became a month. Then two. Denis didn’t give up, didn’t slip back, didn’t return to his old indifference. “I’ve booked us a table at that Italian place,” he told her once. “This Friday. Mum said she’ll watch Vasilisa.” Anastasia looked up from her laptop. “What’s the occasion?” “No reason. I just want to have dinner with you.” She agreed. Out of curiosity, she told herself. Just to see what he was up to. The restaurant was cosy, with dim lights and live music. Denis ordered her favourite wine—and Anastasia was surprised he remembered which one it was. “You’ve changed,” she said bluntly, not beating about the bush. Denis twisted his glass in his hand. “I was blind. A proper, classic fool.” “Tell me something new.” “I know.” He gave a lopsided, utterly unamused smile. “I thought I was working for our family. That you needed money, a bigger flat, a better car. Really, I was just…running away. From responsibility, from chores, from all of it.” Anastasia said nothing, letting him talk. “I noticed you’d changed. That you didn’t care anymore. And that…that was scarier than any row. You shouted, cried, demanded things—that was normal. And then you just stopped. Like I didn’t exist.” He put the glass down. “I almost lost you both. You and Vasia. That’s when I saw I’d got it all wrong.” Anastasia looked at him for a long time. At this man who sat opposite, telling her things she’d longed to hear for years. Was it too late? Or not yet? “I was going to divorce you,” she whispered. “I was waiting for you to give me a reason.” Denis went pale. “Oh, Nastya…” “I was saving up. Looking for a flat.” “I didn’t know it was that bad…” “You should have,” she cut him off. “It’s your family. You should have seen what was happening.” A thick, weighty silence hung between them. The waiter, sensing the atmosphere, circled their table. “I want to work on this,” Denis finally said. “On us. If you’ll give me a chance.” “One chance.” “One’s more than I deserve.” They stayed in the restaurant until closing. Talked about everything—about Vasilisa, money, sharing chores, what each wanted from the other. For the first time in years it was a real conversation, not a volley of complaints or perfunctory exchanges. Rebuilding was slow. Anastasia didn’t leap into her husband’s arms the next morning. She watched, waited for the catch. But Denis stayed true. He cooked at weekends. Mastered the parents’ group chat. Learned to braid Vasilisa’s hair—wonky, messy, but he did it. “Mum, look, Daddy made me a dragon!” Vasilisa burst into the kitchen, showing off a wobbly creation of boxes and coloured paper. Anastasia looked at the “dragon”—lop-sided, one wing bigger than the other—and smiled… …Half a year slipped past. In December, the whole family went to Anastasia’s parents’ cottage. The old house smelled of wood and mince pies. The snowy garden, creaky steps, all blanketed in white. Anastasia sat by the window with a cup of tea, watching Denis and Vasilisa build a snowman. Her daughter gave the orders—“Nose here, eyes higher, scarf’s crooked!”—and Denis obeyed, every so often scooping her up and tossing her in the air. Vasilisa’s shrieks of laughter echoed all around. “Mum! Mum, come out!” the girl waved. Anastasia pulled on her coat and stepped outside. Snow shimmered under the low sun, frost bit her cheeks, and suddenly—a snowball from the side. “It was Daddy!” Vasilisa was quick to tattle. “Traitor,” Denis snorted. Anastasia scooped up snow and threw it at her husband—missed. He laughed, she did too—and within minutes all three were rolling in the drifts, forgetting the snowman, the cold, the world. That evening, when Vasilisa fell asleep on the sofa before her cartoon ended, Denis gently carried her to bed. Anastasia watched as he tucked her in, fixed her pillow, brushed the hair from her face. She sat by the fire, warming her hands on her tea. Soft, feathery snow still fell outside, wrapping the world in white. Denis sat down beside her. “What are you thinking about?” “How glad I am that I never went through with it.” He didn’t need to ask what she meant. He understood. Relationships needed work every day. Not heroic deeds, just small, everyday things: listening, helping, noticing, supporting. Anastasia knew there would still be hard days, misunderstandings, silly arguments. But right now, her husband and daughter sat beside her. Real, alive, loved. Vasilisa woke up, ran to them, and snuggled between her parents on the sofa. Denis put his arms round them both, and Anastasia thought that some things really are worth fighting for… Give Me a Reason, Please

Have a nice day, David leaned over, brushing her cheek with his lips.

Emily nodded absently. Her skin felt cool and untouchedno warmth, no annoyance. Just a cheek, just a touch. The door closed, and the flat filled with silence.

She lingered in the hallway for ten seconds, listening for any sign of feeling. When exactly did it happen? When had something inside her clicked off? Emily remembered crying in the bath two years ago when David forgot their anniversary. A year ago, she was shaking with anger when he once again didnt collect Sophie from nursery. Six months back, she still tried to talk, to explain, to ask.

Nownothing. Clean and empty, like a field after a fire.

Emily walked to the kitchen, poured herself some tea, and sat at the table. Twenty-nine years old. Seven of them married. And here she was, in a quiet flat with a mug growing cold, grappling with the realisation that shed stopped loving her husband so quietly, so ordinarily, she hadnt even noticed it had happened.

David simply followed the rhythm he always had. Hed promise to pick up their daughterthen forget. Hed say he would fix the dripping tapit had been leaking for three months. Hed swear theyd finally visit the zoo this weekendby Saturday hed be busy with mates, on Sunday hed simply laze on the sofa.

Sophie stopped asking when Daddy would play with her. At five, she already knew: Mum was reliable. Dad was someone who sometimes appeared in the evening to watch telly.

Emily no longer argued. She didnt cry into her pillow. She no longer made plans to fix things. She just removed David from the equation of her life.

Car needs an MOT? She arranged it herself. The balcony door wouldnt lock? She called a locksmith. Sophie needed a snowflake costume for the Christmas play? Emily sewed it at night while her husband snored in the next room.

The family had become a strange construction: two adults living parallel lives under the same roof.

One night, David reached for her in bed. Emily moved away gently, claiming a headache. Then tiredness. Then illnesses that didnt exist. Brick by brick, she built a wall between them, each refusal making it higher.

Let him have an affair, she thought coldly. Let him give me a reasonsomething obvious, something my parents and his would accept. Something I wouldnt have to explain.

Because how do you tell your mother that youre leaving your husband simply because hes… nothing? He doesnt hit her, he doesnt drink, he brings his wage home. So he doesnt help with choreslots of men dont. So hes not hands-on with the childmen are useless with kids, everyone knows that.

Emily opened a separate savings account and began putting a bit of her salary aside. She joined a gymnot for David, but for herself. For the new life hovering somewhere past the inevitable divorce.

In the evenings, once Sophie went to sleep, Emily would don headphones and listen to podcasts in Englishcolloquial phrases, business correspondence. Her company worked with international clients, and fluency could open entirely new doors.

Professional development courses took up two evenings a week. David grumbled that he had to mind Sophie, though minding meant cartoons blaring while he stared at his phone.

Weekends belonged to Emily and her daughter: parks, playgrounds, cafés with milkshakes, afternoons spent at the cinema. Sophie was used to it nowthis was their time, Mum and her. Dad was just there, on the periphery, as present as the furniture.

She wont even notice, Emily reassured herself. When we split up, almost nothing will change for her.

It was a comforting thought, and Emily clung to it like a life ring.

Then, something shifted.

Emily didnt notice it right away. But one evening, David offered to put Sophie to bed. Another time, he picked her up from nursery. Then he cooked dinnerjust pasta and cheese, nothing fancy, but he did it unprompted.

Emily eyed him suspiciously. Was it guilt? A passing phase? An attempt to atone for something she didnt know about?

But the new behaviour stuck. David started getting up earlier to take Sophie to nursery. He finally fixed the leaky tap. He signed Sophie up for swimming and drove her there himself on Saturdays.

Daddy, Daddy, watch! I can dive now! Sophie dashed about the flat, miming a swimmer.

David scooped her up and spun her, and Sophie burst into bright, genuine laughter.

Emily watched from the kitchen, hardly recognising her husband.

Ill watch her on Sunday, David said one evening. Arent you seeing your friends?

Emily nodded slowly. There were no friends. She intended simply to have an hour alone with a coffee and a novel. But how did he know about her friends? Had he listened to her on the phone?

The weeks turned into a month. Then two. David didnt slip back into his old ways.

Ive booked us a table at the Italian in town, he announced one day. For Friday. Mum offered to mind Sophie.

Emily looked up from her laptop.

Out of the blue?
No reason. Id just like to have dinner with you.

She agreedpurely out of curiosity, she told herself. To see what he was playing at.

The restaurant was cosy, with soft lighting and a pianist in the corner. David ordered her favourite wineand Emily was surprised to realise he remembered which one it was.

Youve changed, she said, bluntly.

David twirled his glass.

I was blind. Absolutely, spectacularly thick.
Thats no revelation.
I know. He tried to smile but couldnt. I thought I was working for us. That you needed more money, a bigger flat, a nicer car. But really, I was just… hiding. From responsibility, from everything at home.

Emily let him go on.

I noticed youd changed. That you stopped caring. That was scarier than any shouting, you know? When you yelled, cried, demandedit felt normal. But then you just stopped. As though I didnt exist.

He set his glass down, uncertain.

I nearly lost you both. You and Soph. And only then did I realise how wrong Id got it.

Emily gazed at him for a while, at the man sitting across from her saying things shed waited years to hear. Too late? Or not quite?

I was going to leave you, she whispered. I was just waiting for you to give me a reason.

David turned pale.

Emily
Id started saving, looking at flats.
I didnt know it was so bad
You should have, she interrupted. Its your family. You should have seen what was happening.

Heavy silence blanketed the table. The waiter, sensing the atmosphere, gave them a wide berth.

I want to work at this, David said quietly. At us. If youll give me a chance.
One chance.
Thats more than I deserve.

They sat there till closing, talking about everythingSophie, money, whod do what, what each wanted. For the first time in years, it was a real conversation, not just a volley of complaints or standard phrases.

Healing came slow. Emily did not run into his arms the next morning. She watched, waited, half-expecting disappointment. But David stuck with it.

He took over weekend cooking. Mastered the nursery WhatsApp group. Learned to braid Sophies hairlopsided, messy, but by himself.

Mum, look! Dad made me a dragon! Sophie ran into the kitchen, displaying a wonky creation from cardboard boxes and paper.

Emily looked at the dragonclumsy, lopsided, one wing bigger than the otherand smiled.

Half a year slipped by.

December arrived, and the whole family went to Emilys parents cottage in the countryside. The old house smelt of wood and apple crumble, with the garden buried under snow and the porch groaning under frosty footsteps.

Emily sat by the window with a mug of tea, watching as David and Sophie built a snowman. Sophie barked commandshat here, eyes higher, scarf not straight!and David obeyed, grabbing her to toss her high, her squeals ringing across the white garden.

Mum! Mum, come out! Sophie waved frantically.

Emily pulled on her coat and stepped onto the porch. The snow sparkled in the low sun; the chill pinched her cheeks. Suddenly, a snowball whistled in from the side.

Daddy did it! Sophie said at once, betraying him with glee.
Traitor, David grinned.

Emily scooped up some snow and threw it at her husband. She missed. He laughed, she did tooand within seconds, all three were rolling about in the snowdrifts, forgetting the snowman, the cold, everything.

That night, after Sophie fell asleep on the sofa halfway through a cartoon, David gently carried her to bed. Emily watched him tuck her in, smooth her pillow, brush stray hairs away.

She sat by the fire, warming her hands on her mug, as snow fell softly outside, tucking the world in under a white blanket.

David settled beside her.

What are you thinking?
That Im glad I didnt go through with it.

He didnt ask what she meant. He knew.

Relationships need effort every daynot heroic deeds, but simple things: listening, helping, noticing, supporting. Emily understood there would be hard days ahead, misunderstandings, silly rows.

But just now, in that moment, her husband and daughter were therereal, present, cherished.

Sophie woke, padded over, and climbed between her parents on the sofa. David wrapped his arms around them both, and Emily thought that some things truly are worth fighting for.

And in that silent, glowing moment, she realised: love, even when worn thin, can be mended with careif both hearts are willing to try.

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Give Me a Reason, Please — Have a great day, — Denis leaned in and brushed her cheek with his lips. Anastasia nodded automatically. Her skin felt dry and cool—no warmth, no irritation. Just skin, just a touch. The door closed, and the flat filled with silence. She stood in the hallway for ten more seconds, listening to herself. When did it happen? When did something inside her click and switch off? Anastasia remembered crying in the bathroom two years ago when Denis forgot their anniversary. Last year, she shook with rage when he once again forgot to pick up Vasilisa from nursery. Half a year ago, she was still trying to talk, to explain, to ask. Now—nothing. Clean and smooth, like a scorched field. Anastasia walked to the kitchen, poured herself a coffee, and sat at the table. Twenty-nine years old. Seven of them married. Yet here she was in an empty flat with a cooling mug, realising that she’d fallen out of love with her husband so quietly and mundanely that she hadn’t even noticed when it happened. Denis carried on in his usual routine. Promised to pick up their daughter—didn’t do it. Said he’d fix the bathroom tap—the tap had been leaking for three months. Swore that this weekend they’d finally go to the zoo—but on Saturday urgent plans with his friends turned up and on Sunday he just lounged on the sofa. Vasilisa stopped asking when Daddy would play with her. At five years old, she already knew: Mummy was reliable. Daddy was the man who sometimes appeared in the evenings and watched TV. Anastasia no longer started rows. Didn’t cry into her pillow. Didn’t make plans to fix things. She simply removed Denis from the equation of her life. Car needs to go for its MOT? She arranged it herself. Broken lock on the balcony door? She called a handyman. Vasilisa needed a snowflake outfit for Christmas? Anastasia sewed it at night while her husband snored in the next room. The family became a strange structure of two adults living parallel lives under one roof. One night Denis reached for her in bed. Anastasia gently moved away, blaming a headache. Then tiredness. Then other imagined illnesses. She methodically built a wall between them, higher with every refusal. “Go on then, have an affair,” she thought coolly. “Give me a reason. A proper, clear reason my parents and mother-in-law would accept. One I wouldn’t have to explain.” Because how do you tell your mother that you’re leaving your husband just because he’s… nothing? Doesn’t hit, doesn’t drink, brings money home. So he doesn’t help with chores—everyone’s got that. So he doesn’t spend time with the child—men aren’t great with kids anyway. Anastasia opened a separate bank account and started saving part of her salary. Signed up for the gym—not for her husband, for herself. For that new life, beckoning somewhere beyond the horizon of an inevitable divorce. In the evenings, when Vasilisa had gone to sleep, Anastasia put on headphones and listened to podcasts in English. Conversational phrases, business correspondence. Her company worked with international clients and a good level of English could open new doors. Professional development courses took up two evenings a week. Denis grumbled that he had to look after Vasilisa, though “looking after her” just meant putting on cartoons and scrolling on his phone. Anastasia spent weekends with her daughter. Parks, playgrounds, cafés with milkshakes, cinema trips to animated films. Vasilisa got used to this being their time—mum and her. Dad existed somewhere on the periphery, like a piece of furniture. “She won’t even notice,” Anastasia reassured herself. “When we divorce, almost nothing will change for her.” It was a comforting thought. Anastasia clung to it, like a lifebuoy. And then something shifted. Anastasia didn’t notice it straight away. One evening Denis offered to put Vasilisa to bed. Then—to pick her up from nursery. Then—he made dinner, alright, just cheese and pasta, but on his own, without reminders. Anastasia eyed him suspiciously. What’s this? A guilty conscience? Short-lived insanity? Trying to cover up a secret mistake she didn’t yet know about? But the days passed and Denis didn’t revert. He got up early to take Vasilisa to nursery. Fixed that tap. Signed her up for swimming and even took her to lessons on Saturdays. “Daddy, Daddy, look, I can dive now!” Vasilisa ran round the flat, pretending to swim. Denis grabbed her, tossed her up to the ceiling, and she squealed with real, ringing laughter. Anastasia watched from the kitchen, not recognising her husband. “I can watch her on Sunday,” Denis said one evening. “Aren’t you meeting your friends?” Anastasia nodded slowly. No meeting planned—she was just going to sit in a café alone with her book. But how did he know about friends? Was he actually listening to her phone calls? The weeks became a month. Then two. Denis didn’t give up, didn’t slip back, didn’t return to his old indifference. “I’ve booked us a table at that Italian place,” he told her once. “This Friday. Mum said she’ll watch Vasilisa.” Anastasia looked up from her laptop. “What’s the occasion?” “No reason. I just want to have dinner with you.” She agreed. Out of curiosity, she told herself. Just to see what he was up to. The restaurant was cosy, with dim lights and live music. Denis ordered her favourite wine—and Anastasia was surprised he remembered which one it was. “You’ve changed,” she said bluntly, not beating about the bush. Denis twisted his glass in his hand. “I was blind. A proper, classic fool.” “Tell me something new.” “I know.” He gave a lopsided, utterly unamused smile. “I thought I was working for our family. That you needed money, a bigger flat, a better car. Really, I was just…running away. From responsibility, from chores, from all of it.” Anastasia said nothing, letting him talk. “I noticed you’d changed. That you didn’t care anymore. And that…that was scarier than any row. You shouted, cried, demanded things—that was normal. And then you just stopped. Like I didn’t exist.” He put the glass down. “I almost lost you both. You and Vasia. That’s when I saw I’d got it all wrong.” Anastasia looked at him for a long time. At this man who sat opposite, telling her things she’d longed to hear for years. Was it too late? Or not yet? “I was going to divorce you,” she whispered. “I was waiting for you to give me a reason.” Denis went pale. “Oh, Nastya…” “I was saving up. Looking for a flat.” “I didn’t know it was that bad…” “You should have,” she cut him off. “It’s your family. You should have seen what was happening.” A thick, weighty silence hung between them. The waiter, sensing the atmosphere, circled their table. “I want to work on this,” Denis finally said. “On us. If you’ll give me a chance.” “One chance.” “One’s more than I deserve.” They stayed in the restaurant until closing. Talked about everything—about Vasilisa, money, sharing chores, what each wanted from the other. For the first time in years it was a real conversation, not a volley of complaints or perfunctory exchanges. Rebuilding was slow. Anastasia didn’t leap into her husband’s arms the next morning. She watched, waited for the catch. But Denis stayed true. He cooked at weekends. Mastered the parents’ group chat. Learned to braid Vasilisa’s hair—wonky, messy, but he did it. “Mum, look, Daddy made me a dragon!” Vasilisa burst into the kitchen, showing off a wobbly creation of boxes and coloured paper. Anastasia looked at the “dragon”—lop-sided, one wing bigger than the other—and smiled… …Half a year slipped past. In December, the whole family went to Anastasia’s parents’ cottage. The old house smelled of wood and mince pies. The snowy garden, creaky steps, all blanketed in white. Anastasia sat by the window with a cup of tea, watching Denis and Vasilisa build a snowman. Her daughter gave the orders—“Nose here, eyes higher, scarf’s crooked!”—and Denis obeyed, every so often scooping her up and tossing her in the air. Vasilisa’s shrieks of laughter echoed all around. “Mum! Mum, come out!” the girl waved. Anastasia pulled on her coat and stepped outside. Snow shimmered under the low sun, frost bit her cheeks, and suddenly—a snowball from the side. “It was Daddy!” Vasilisa was quick to tattle. “Traitor,” Denis snorted. Anastasia scooped up snow and threw it at her husband—missed. He laughed, she did too—and within minutes all three were rolling in the drifts, forgetting the snowman, the cold, the world. That evening, when Vasilisa fell asleep on the sofa before her cartoon ended, Denis gently carried her to bed. Anastasia watched as he tucked her in, fixed her pillow, brushed the hair from her face. She sat by the fire, warming her hands on her tea. Soft, feathery snow still fell outside, wrapping the world in white. Denis sat down beside her. “What are you thinking about?” “How glad I am that I never went through with it.” He didn’t need to ask what she meant. He understood. Relationships needed work every day. Not heroic deeds, just small, everyday things: listening, helping, noticing, supporting. Anastasia knew there would still be hard days, misunderstandings, silly arguments. But right now, her husband and daughter sat beside her. Real, alive, loved. Vasilisa woke up, ran to them, and snuggled between her parents on the sofa. Denis put his arms round them both, and Anastasia thought that some things really are worth fighting for… Give Me a Reason, Please
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