I wanted to surprise my husband. I decided to go to his office and bring him lunch. As I reached the door, I overheard a conversation that left me deeply unsettled.
Im twenty-nine years old. Perhaps Im the most naive woman in the world, because until recently, I believed everything in my family was perfect. And I was wrong about the man I chose My husband turned out to be a cheat and a selfish man. I still cant believe he did this to me.
Weve known each other for ten years, married for six. His name is William, and hes always been incredibly caring and devoted, providing for me and our children. We have two: a son and a daughter. With my help, William managed to start his own business. It was doing well, bringing in good money.
I used to work as a sales assistant, but recently, I opened my own online clothing shop. So while our daughter is at nursery and our son naps, I work and earn my own income.
My weight has always been around eight and a half stone. After having children, I gained over three stone. At first, I hoped looking after two little ones would help me lose the extra weight. But it wasnt as simple as it seemed. I made it my goal to slim downate healthily, exercised, drank plenty of water, and cut out carbs. Yet the scale didnt budge, and it made me miserable. I started feeling insecure.
After my second child, I stopped liking what I saw in the mirror. I no longer felt feminine or attractive. And William changed right in front of me. He stopped kissing or hugging me, let alone anything more intimate. I cant even remember the last time we had a proper conversation. Every exchange revolved around the children or chores.
Ill admit, before motherhood, I felt much more confident and desirable. Now, I barely recognise myself. I knew our marriage had suffered because of it, so I decided to fix things. One day, I thought Id surprise William at work with lunch. But as I reached his office door, I heard him say:
“Dont worry, love, Ill come by after work. I told my wife Im swamped with meetings. She hasnt got a clue about you!”
I didnt walk in. I turned and left.
Does he not realise I gained weight carrying his children? Hes no prize himselfhardly fit, yet he picks at my flaws.
It made me wonderdoes he also think Im a fool?
I couldnt bring myself to confront him. What should I do? File for divorce but what about the children? How would they cope without their father? Pretend nothing happened? I dont think I could bear it.
For now, Ive decided to focus on myself. Ive joined a gym. First, Ill show William exactly who hes losing. Then well see.
Sometimes, the greatest strength isnt in fighting for someone who doesnt deserve youbut in walking away with your head held high.
