Youre just jealous
Monday, 11th May
Mum, are you serious? The Savoy Grill? Thats at least two hundred pounds for dinner. Per person.
James threw his keys onto the shelf so hard they skittered off and hit the wall. I turned from the hob, still stirring the cheese sauce, and immediately saw his knuckles go white as he gripped his phone.
He listened to his mother for a few more tense minutes, grimaced, and abruptly ended the call.
Whats happened? I asked.
Instead of replying, James slumped down at the kitchen table and stared at the bowl of mashed potatoes like he was seeing them for the first time. I switched off the gas, wiped my hands on a tea towel and sat across from him.
James
Shes completely lost it this time, he said. The anger and hopelessness in his expression made my chest ache. Remember that blokeGerald? From those dance classes?
I nodded. His mum, Anne, had mentioned Gerald just last monthsmiling shyly, fiddling with the edge of her tablecloth. It seemed sweet then: a fifty-eight-year-old widow, five years on her own, meeting a gentleman through the community centres dance club, waltzing and laughing again.
Well. James pushed away his plate. Shes taken him to The Savoy Grill. Three times in two weeks. Bought him a suit for sixteen hundred pounds. Last weekend they went down to Bathguess who paid for the hotel and all the tours?
Anne Stephens.
Bingo. He rubbed his palm over his face. Mums been saving that money for yearsnew kitchen, a rainy day. Now shes just throwing it at a man shes known for six weeks. Its mad
I stayed quiet, trying to find the right words. I knew Anneshe was dreamy, trusting, a bit naive, but full of hope and, even after everything, still believed in big, sincere love.
James, listen I placed my hand over his. Shes an adult, love. Its her money, her decisions. You cant make her choices for her, not now. Besides, shes not likely to listen to reason at the moment.
He shrugged but didnt move away.
I just cant watch her he started.
I know, darling. But you cant live her life for her. Shes responsible for her own happinessand her own mistakes. Whether we like it or not. Shes not daft, and its her right.
James nodded grimly, jaw tight.
Sunday, 12th July
Two months slipped by so quickly. The talk of Gerald fadedAnne started calling less, and when she did, she was vague and evasive. I reckoned the romance had run its course and didnt think much more of it.
So when the doorbell rang on Sunday evening and Anne burst in, I was caught off guard.
My darlings! she cried, her perfume lingering in her wake. Hes proposed! Look! Just look!
A ring sparkled on her fingera tiny stone, nothing grand, but Anne gazed at it as if it were the Crown Jewels.
Were getting married! Next month! Hes just wonderful She cupped her cheeks and giggled, giddy as a schoolgirl. I never imagined, at my age that Id feel such happiness again
James hugged his mother, and I noticed his shoulders finally relax. Maybe things were going to be all right. Maybe Gerald did truly love her, and wed been worrying for nothing.
Congratulations, Mum, he said, smiling wide. You deserve to be happy.
And Ive signed the flat over to him! Were a proper family now! Anne blurted out, and for a moment, time stood still.
I almost forgot to breathe. James stiffened as if hed walked into a closed door.
Sorry, what did you just say? he managed.
The flat, she repeated, briskly, oblivious to our faces. So he knows I trust him. Thats what love istrust! Just before the weddingno point waiting.
The silence was heavy enough to hear the hallway clock ticking.
Anne I said quietly, as gently as I could, youve signed your flat over to someone youve known three months? Before even the wedding?
So what? she replied, lifting her chin. I trust him. Hes a good man, nothing like what you two imagine. I know youre thinking badly of him.
Were not thinking anything, Anne. Its justcouldnt you have held off until after the registry office? Why rush?
You just dont understand. This this is proof of love. What do you two know about deep feelings or trust? She folded her arms, defiant.
James finally found his voice.
Mum
No! she stamped a foot, and for an instant, I saw not a grown woman, but a stubborn, sulking teenager. I wont listen to any more! Youre just jealous of my happiness! You always want to ruin everything!
She fled out, pushing past the doorframe. The door banged, and the glass cabinet rattled in protest.
August, 15th
The wedding was smallthe local registry office, a charity shop dress, a bouquet of three tired roses. But Anne glowed as if she were making her vows in Westminster Abbey. Gerald, a solid man with a receding hairline and a smooth, oily smile, played the attentive groom, kissing her hand, moving her chair, pouring the bubbly. Flawless.
I watched him over my glass of wine. Something felt off. His eyeswhen he looked at Anne, his gaze stayed cold and sharp. Calculated affection; his kindness rehearsed, his care too careful.
I didnt say a word. She wouldnt hear me, anyway.
Autumn-Winter
For the first few months, Anne rang every week, bursting with news of posh restaurants and West End theatres; her marvellous husband was so thoughtful, hed brought her roses, just because.
James listened, nodded, then put down the phone and stared into space for ages afterwards.
I gave him his quiet, and watched. The year slipped by in a blur.
Spring
Then the knock came.
It was Anne standing there, but I barely recognised her. She looked ten years older; wrinkles etched deep, eyes sunken, spine bowed. Her battered suitcase at her sidethe same one from her Bath trip.
He threw me out, she choked. Filed for divorce and made me leave. The flatits his now. Its all in his name.
I stepped aside silently and let her in.
The kettle boiled quickly. She sat in the armchair, clutching her mug, weeping softly, hopelessly.
I loved him, truly, she sobbed. Gave him everything. And he just
I didnt interrupt, just rubbed her back and waited out the storm.
James came home an hour later; stood in the doorway, stony-faced at the sight.
James. Anne rose, arms open. Please, darling, Ive nowhere to go Just a little room, I wont be any trouble. Children should care for their parents, its
Stop. He held up his hand. Stop, Mum.
Ive nothing left. Nothing. I spent every penny on him. My pensions not enoughyou know
I warned you.
What?
I warned you, he said, sitting on the sofa with the weight of the world on his shoulders. I told you not to rush. I told you to get to know him. Told you not to sign over your flat. Do you remember what you said to me?
Anne looked away.
You said we didnt understand true love. That we were jealous of your happiness. I remember every word, Mum.
James I tried to cut in.
He held up a hand, voice dull and tired.
No. She needs to hear it. Youre an adult, Mum. You made your choices. You ignored everyone trying to stop you. Now you want us to pick up the pieces?
But Im your mother!
Thats exactly why Im angry! he shouted, shooting up to his feet, voice breaking. Im sick of watching you throw away your life and then running to me when it goes wrong.
Anne shrank, suddenly fragile and small.
He tricked me, James. I really did love him
Loved him so much you gave the flat Dad bought to a total stranger. Brilliant, Mum. Just brilliant.
She wept again, wringing her hands. Im sorry. I know I was blind. But please another chance. Ill never
Grown-ups have to live with their own choices, James said, exhausted. You wanted independence? Here it is. Youll have to find your own place, your own way forward.
Anne left, sobbing on the landing. I spent the night at Jamess side, silent, just holding his hand. He didnt cry. Just lay flat on his back, staring up, sighing from time to time.
Did I do the right thing? he asked at dawn, when the sky was growing pale.
Yes, I told him, stroking his cheek. It was hard and it hurt. But it was right.
That morning, James found her a room to rent on the edge of the city and paid six months in advance. That was to be the last help hed give.
From now on, youre on your own, Mum. If you need help with legal stuff, well sort itcourt costs, whatever. But youre not moving in here
I listened, thinking about what was fair. Sometimes the harshest lesson is the only one that sticks. Anne got exactly what her blindness had brought on her.
And somehow, that thought made me feel both sad and peaceful all at once. But deep inside, I couldnt quite shake the idea that this wasnt the endand that somehow, things would right themselves. I didnt know how, but they would.







